If there was ever any indication I needed a career change and fast, it’s my body just starting to break down entirely. It’s been stressful lately, so stressful I am having headaches, tachycardia, hypertension, palpitations and we won’t even talk about the most recent manifestation of that stress except to say my ass hurts so bad I can’t sit down for any length of time. Make what you will of that but I’m sure you catch my drift.
The stress has been building gradually over the past few weeks but last week was the straw that broke the camel’s back as it were. The head engineer passes the buck on one of his pet projects and makes me draw something up in Autodesk Inventor, a software I’m not too familiar with. Between being under the gun there and trying to handle my other duties, well, I about imploded.
Then I get kickback on a previous lift plan drawing I had done and get bitched out because of one reason or another. This ain’t the first time. Apparently nothing I do around here is good enough.
What started out as looking like a good move has quickly soured. It’s getting to be even worse than my previous job. I can’t catch a break and everyone is complaining about something.
Of course, that’s only part of my problem. The personal life/family stress I’m facing right now isn’t helping either. It’s just a perfect storm as it were.
I just don’t know what to do. I don’t know what career would be better suited to me. I guess I should start looking though. Doing some research as it were. The crane business is no place for an autist. It’s way too stressful for us to handle. I have had three meltdowns at work in the past two weeks. I’m absolutely miserable.
Anyway, sorry for all that. I just needed to rant. Forgive me. Life just really sucks right now. At least I have my blogging buddies and my few in person friends to lean on for support. You mean more to me than you know.